INFJ - The "Confidant"
Jung/Myers/Briggs Personality Types (Free Test)
INFJs, making up an estimated 1% of all people, are the most rare type (males even more so). They are introspective, caring, sensitive, gentle and complex people that strive for peace and derive satisfaction from helping others. INFJs are highly intuitive, empathetic and dedicated listeners. These traits tend to act as a "tell me what's wrong" sign on their forehead, hence the nicknames Confidant, Counselor or Empath. INFJs are intensely private and deeply committed to their beliefs.


the daydreamer
11:32 PM

i believe very much in fate and karma. for the first week of sch holiday lessons, i was late 2 times for lessons. i really don't know what's wrong with me. i got this feeling that maybe it's meant to be. it does really seems like an excuse but i swear that it's like total knock out. on fri, i woke up practically at the time that the lesson starts. besides that, when i really set my mind to study or maybe to simply pack my room, i just got knock out and then 3/4 hrs would be gone just like that. sometimes, i really feel that i have no control over my life. it seems to be running the way it should be. it's like a plan, like it's fate. and i guess it's just karma because i've been thinking that i'm brilliant enough to catch up anyway and i slacken too much until there's no about turn anymore. no chance, no change, just going on as it is. it's like kind of sad. i don't know how to turn my life around. can i really start my life on a new note?

Labels: life is incomprehensive

the daydreamer
3:33 PM

i've been feeling really down... thinking maybe bacause i have gotten too much too easily that i took many things for granted... until everything starts to go wrong in RV onwards. i used to be good in everything. be it sports, arts , academic... but now everything is going wrong, completely wrong and chaotic. i think i will break down some day. everytime i told ppl i will do my best and nobody believes it, i gave my best but nobody sees it. i didn't expect much from what i give but i didn't expect complete ignorance and it seems like everyone else... i really don't know. i rmb my senior telling me at the last activity they took us that she really thinks that i am irritating. she says that i am always the slowest and don't seem to be even trying hard. at that point of time, i was so shock and upset. i've gave up practically everything... that i don't even care if i fail my exams and that nc is my life. then what i got is this.when i got my third sgt rank... i cried my heart out... from the point i got the rank till out of the hq. ppl just cannot see my love for nc... yes. maybe that's me. my best= lousiest? and sometimes when they really see and notice what i did they think i'm way to crazy and even stupid. why? what do u all want? it seems like nobody is understanding. i really tried very hard to do everything. for example my hw, i really very much want to complete my hw. but i always fell asleep... and i am starting to hate sleeping. i am struggling really hard. if u r thinking maybe i should drop one my h2 to h1... haha... no way. it seems like there's a bad luck and sleeping spell on me. but somehow, i will break it... i don't how.... but i think i can... :/
i don't think there's any frequent visitors anyway. but i feel much better after this. please don't spread what i wrote around. thx

Labels: ultra emo

the daydreamer
12:31 AM

the celebration for mothers' day ended 1/2hr ago. so here i am uploading a picture of my new york cheesecake. it's not really fantastic but since it's my first cake that i bake, i guess i did it quite well (just that the cake was not chilled when we ate but the taste was good just a little too soggy for the crust) i bake the cake with my younger sis, she help as much as she can given that she had a stomachache and fell asleep while i somehow struggle with the ingredients (there's no big mixing bowl at home so i mix the ingredients in 2 portions.) overall, i love the cheesecake (it's creamy and sweet) and i am going to bake one again soon before baking other type of cake and cheesecake.

to add on, i didn't do much of my homework. so here i am struggling. I've been rather busy today: breakfast with mummy and sis. baking the cake (it's not as easy as it seems to be... i used the whole day to bake it). dinner with dad and sis. in between: medical check-up for obs, buying of ingredients, photo taking for obs. talking about obs. I've got to sacrifice my spec course phase 2 and i hate that. my cadets are going for it and i can't go. argh! so frustrating. I've been trying hard to be good in everything that i do that i guess i am pressuring myself too much. can i excel in everything? i really want to and i know each and everyone of us wants to. is it hard work or talent? or both? when can i do well for everything? i was a perfectionist. it's not like i am not now but i am getting tired of having the idea that everything will be perfect when everything is not at all perfect or at any point in time near to perfect. everyday i look at the poster with Koo Qi Hui top student of 2003 at the main gate of the school, wondering- will i ever have a similar banner that reads Ang Qi Hui top student of 2009? maybe i am just being too naive...


the daydreamer
1:03 AM

i seemed to enjoy the detention today. i didn't do any big offence, it's just that i was late for sch while rushing PI. the sch is rather conducive at night. i am gg to finish all the hw i owe and next time do everything before hand.

anyway, i realised sth very sad today. I don't have many friends... 08S25 is like a stranger to me. everytime when ppl sit seats away from me and i feel so super duper left out... esp during chi lessons when sherry is not around. probably they never realised. i am living in my bubble and i feel so lonely... am i irritating or what? i feel that i am avoided by people. i may appear very cheerful but it's feel worse to be appearing so even if i am not at all happy...
i wrote sth super duper sad abt my past... and i guess i almost teared...

the daydreamer
10:29 PM

i've been really busy... actually not exactly. i am like forcing myself to do my homework. not that i don't want to do but because i am too tired. i think my body is gg to give way sooner or later due to exhaustion. because of what i want to be- vet- i need not only to do well, i need to excel in every aspect. just hope that everything goes well for me.
it's been a tiring year... juggling homework, ccas (CO and NC esp) and tennis which i pick up early this year. then i've just enrol myself for NYAA GOLD. actually i start to admire joanna (ex-nc).

the daydreamer
3:50 PM

"your class has the lowest L1R5 in the cohort...., " my chem tutor said. i think i got to start to mug already. Or else i will be last in class for sure... and i know that i'm the last now, judging from my L1R5. and my eng grade is the worst.
STRESSED! stressed! stressed!
i need to go now. do all my holiday hw which should be completed by now...
complete nc lover to mugger.... cannot go for too many nc stuff already.... sobsob...

the daydreamer
3:47 PM