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You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.


You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

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* 18.7.06 *
i hav been too busy nowadays.... life is so unlucky for me..... i am still very + extremely disappointed with myself for what i hav got during spec course... i first time cried so hard in front of my platoon mates and other ppl... i think they were a bit shocked... it was also rather embarrassing... i dunno why... but i think that 2nd sgt rank 3rd sgt rank differs quite a lot... to me- i think it means that u r being recognised and appreciated on what u hav done in the 3 years in ncc... of course u must hav the basic standard... if possible... i really want to know why i wasn't being chosen as a 2nd sgt.... i really dunno what hav i done wrong or where in me is not up to standard or not up to expectation...

i look back and i could vividly rmb that i had insisted to join ncc despite my mum's strong disapproval... i still rmb i told somebody who didn't like nc at first to make nc her life... she did it and i am proud of her... i still rmb the days when i spent 3 to 4 hrs polishing my boots everyday during sec 1 even when i could not make it shine no matter how i do it and staying up to 12am to iron my own no.4 ..... insisting that i must iron my own uniform because i am proud of it even my mum insist on ironing it for me... trying my best in whatever i do in nc even when it means that i will fail in my exams.... BUT... what makes me feels demoralised and disappointed is what i got back... 3rd sgt was what i got back... i dunno to laugh at my pure innocence or what ... but no matter what.... i promise myself that i will still do my best... HOWEVER, i think that i will never forget this... it's like a scar that will stay through my nc life or maybe my whole life... maybe some ppl think tt i am exaggerating... or maybe juat trying to get anybody else's symphathy.... but this is of course not the case... but i can understand... it's hard to think in my shoes... it just that i really cannot get over this choking grief and the overwelming feeling...


the daydreamer
10:29 PM