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2008-07-07T23:32:00.002+08:00

INFJ - The "Confidant"
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INFJs, making up an estimated 1% of all people, are the most rare type (males even more so). They are introspective, caring, sensitive, gentle and complex people that strive for peace and derive satisfaction from helping others. INFJs are highly intuitive, empathetic and dedicated listeners. These traits tend to act as a "tell me what's wrong" sign on their forehead, hence the nicknames Confidant, Counselor or Empath. INFJs are intensely private and deeply committed to their beliefs.

2008-05-31T15:33:00.003+08:00

i believe very much in fate and karma. for the first week of sch holiday lessons, i was late 2 times for lessons. i really don't know what's wrong with me. i got this feeling that maybe it's meant to be. it does really seems like an excuse but i swear that it's like total knock out. on fri, i woke up practically at the time that the lesson starts. besides that, when i really set my mind to study or maybe to simply pack my room, i just got knock out and then 3/4 hrs would be gone just like that. sometimes, i really feel that i have no control over my life. it seems to be running the way it should be. it's like a plan, like it's fate. and i guess it's just karma because i've been thinking that i'm brilliant enough to catch up anyway and i slacken too much until there's no about turn anymore. no chance, no change, just going on as it is. it's like kind of sad. i don't know how to turn my life around. can i really start my life on a new note?

2008-05-15T00:31:00.002+08:00

i've been feeling really down... thinking maybe bacause i have gotten too much too easily that i took many things for granted... until everything starts to go wrong in RV onwards. i used to be good in everything. be it sports, arts , academic... but now everything is going wrong, completely wrong and chaotic. i think i will break down some day. everytime i told ppl i will do my best and nobody believes it, i gave my best but nobody sees it. i didn't expect much from what i give but i didn't expect complete ignorance and it seems like everyone else... i really don't know. i rmb my senior telling me at the last activity they took us that she really thinks that i am irritating. she says that i am always the slowest and don't seem to be even trying hard. at that point of time, i was so shock and upset. i've gave up practically everything... that i don't even care if i fail my exams and that nc is my life. then what i got is this.when i got my third sgt rank... i cried my heart out... from the point i got the rank till out of the hq. ppl just cannot see my love for nc... yes. maybe that's me. my best= lousiest? and sometimes when they really see and notice what i did they think i'm way to crazy and even stupid. why? what do u all want? it seems like nobody is understanding. i really tried very hard to do everything. for example my hw, i really very much want to complete my hw. but i always fell asleep... and i am starting to hate sleeping. i am struggling really hard. if u r thinking maybe i should drop one my h2 to h1... haha... no way. it seems like there's a bad luck and sleeping spell on me. but somehow, i will break it... i don't how.... but i think i can... :/
i don't think there's any frequent visitors anyway. but i feel much better after this. please don't spread what i wrote around. thx

2008-05-12T01:03:00.002+08:00

the celebration for mothers' day ended 1/2hr ago. so here i am uploading a picture of my new york cheesecake. it's not really fantastic but since it's my first cake that i bake, i guess i did it quite well (just that the cake was not chilled when we ate but the taste was good just a little too soggy for the crust) i bake the cake with my younger sis, she help as much as she can given that she had a stomachache and fell asleep while i somehow struggle with the ingredients (there's no big mixing bowl at home so i mix the ingredients in 2 portions.) overall, i love the cheesecake (it's creamy and sweet) and i am going to bake one again soon before baking other type of cake and cheesecake.

to add on, i didn't do much of my homework. so here i am struggling. I've been rather busy today: breakfast with mummy and sis. baking the cake (it's not as easy as it seems to be... i used the whole day to bake it). dinner with dad and sis. in between: medical check-up for obs, buying of ingredients, photo taking for obs. talking about obs. I've got to sacrifice my spec course phase 2 and i hate that. my cadets are going for it and i can't go. argh! so frustrating. I've been trying hard to be good in everything that i do that i guess i am pressuring myself too much. can i excel in everything? i really want to and i know each and everyone of us wants to. is it hard work or talent? or both? when can i do well for everything? i was a perfectionist. it's not like i am not now but i am getting tired of having the idea that everything will be perfect when everything is not at all perfect or at any point in time near to perfect. everyday i look at the poster with Koo Qi Hui top student of 2003 at the main gate of the school, wondering- will i ever have a similar banner that reads Ang Qi Hui top student of 2009? maybe i am just being too naive...

2008-04-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

i seemed to enjoy the detention today. i didn't do any big offence, it's just that i was late for sch while rushing PI. the sch is rather conducive at night. i am gg to finish all the hw i owe and next time do everything before hand.

anyway, i realised sth very sad today. I don't have many friends... 08S25 is like a stranger to me. everytime when ppl sit seats away from me and i feel so super duper left out... esp during chi lessons when sherry is not around. probably they never realised. i am living in my bubble and i feel so lonely... am i irritating or what? i feel that i am avoided by people. i may appear very cheerful but it's feel worse to be appearing so even if i am not at all happy...
i wrote sth super duper sad abt my past... and i guess i almost teared...

2008-04-20T15:50:00.002+08:00

i've been really busy... actually not exactly. i am like forcing myself to do my homework. not that i don't want to do but because i am too tired. i think my body is gg to give way sooner or later due to exhaustion. because of what i want to be- vet- i need not only to do well, i need to excel in every aspect. just hope that everything goes well for me.
it's been a tiring year... juggling homework, ccas (CO and NC esp) and tennis which i pick up early this year. then i've just enrol myself for NYAA GOLD. actually i start to admire joanna (ex-nc).

2008-03-17T15:47:00.002+08:00

"your class has the lowest L1R5 in the cohort...., " my chem tutor said. i think i got to start to mug already. Or else i will be last in class for sure... and i know that i'm the last now, judging from my L1R5. and my eng grade is the worst.
STRESSED! stressed! stressed!
i need to go now. do all my holiday hw which should be completed by now...
complete nc lover to mugger.... cannot go for too many nc stuff already.... sobsob...

2008-03-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

i just came back from spec course. even though it's not my first time as admin but it's rather demanding. after days of not sleeping early after the camp feast 5 days before, i was quite worn out already. the first night before the start of the camp, i slept for 1/2hr only and 1.5 hr the next night. the third night was 3 hr. hence, during the 2nd day of the camp, i was already near to knock out already. i even had illusion of abt an hour or so after i accidentally fall asleep. it's pretty scary. the last night was a complete knock out. i slept straight through the night till daylight. the whole bunk was late. many ppl woke up late. it's like a curse. i think i shld go bathe and sleep. oh gosh! i got so much hw. i feel really stressed now, it seems like all the ppl in 08s25 are all very smart with me being the exception. need to mug ......

2008-03-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i blog. i just came back from CO. dizi. i tagged along with my friends and got myself into dizi as requested. i'm still not sure whether i shld join CO or not. i don't mind joining actually. what i really wanted to join was tennis but i couldn't get through the trials. on the other hand, i wouldn't want to beg the teacher even if it mean i have the chance to get in. reason is because i want to get sth based on my ability. Even though sth means alot to me, i wouldn't want to get it by force or else it will mean nth. archery rejected me too. choir was also one of my choices and i got into the first trials. i want to join cross country badly. i've decided that i should join a sports cca. since i don't have talent in any specific sports, i decided to join cross country if it's in pjc. one of the reason is because i like to run. i know it sounds sick to many people but i have a dream that one day i can join a marathon and be the top few runners. student council sounds fun too so i took the form today to think abt it. but i'm very worried that i can't cope with my studies. i got 4 h2 and external cca. that's why i need to choose my cca in sch wisely. i would very much want to give my 110% effort to both cca and studies and be the best. that's of course, everyone aspires to be the best. but the problem is my best may not be the best after all.
way to go! i've got 3camps in 2 weeks... :)

2008-02-20T13:31:00.002+08:00

i'm sick again! the second time in the year..... so xian! actually shld be the third time in the year... i fever until 39.1degree celsius yesterday... got sorethroat, headache and muscleache... luckily i'm much better now... so sad... can't go to sch on the 1st day!

2008-02-16T15:35:00.003+08:00

haven been blogging for a long time... 1. too lazy to go online 2. quite busy 3. too much to write, don't know where to start. so maybe i should start from where i stop.
on 30th jan, i was sick. Dispite being sick, i went for the IMt on 31st jan. I was feeling abit down for the whole day. I can't recall much but i remembered i spoiled debbie's newly bought keychain. Last but not least, i remembered that i almost fainted on the escalator that day. i blacked out for a second or so but luckily i grabbed on the belt at the side or else i will be falling onto the person behind.
2feb- OG outing. quite fun. i remembered hitting joel with the friskbe. so sorry abt it. we cycled around east coast park. had a surprise for peiqi since she's leaving to austalia on wed. geekeng learnt how to cycle that day. and not forgetting i was cheated $8 for a pot of tofu... argh!
4feb- prob the last i'm going to see peiqi. our og gave her pressie for farewell. hope she's well in australia.
6feb- eve of new year. nth much. went back rv. but don't really feel welcomed. probably because not much ppl are in school and mrs phua is also not around. so sad.
7feb-9feb - new year celeration. not very fun actually. so sad.
13 feb- my first tennis lesson. i had it with brena. the coach said i was like a robot. 1.too stiff 2. use too much strength. but i still like tennis... probably because the racquet is too nice.
here's my racquet:

15feb- clt forum and fiesta. i wear too plainly. the nice cute hair was done by my dearest gurls. don't really like the dancing and all those music..got quite bored during the period. luckily, i don't headache after that which i normally have after listening to this kind of music. but i thought that the performance by the wildcat band was great... =P

2008-01-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

i am sick - diarrhea again... i got diarrhea on 20/01 too but it's worse now... i got diarrhea 6 times and still counting today... slight fever... doctor says it's inflammation...sounds bad right? But on the bright side... i got 2 days MC... haha... i guess it's just post-camp symptoms... i learnt alot from camp feast I... it got me to my limit of my temper... i got so angry that i scolded like nobody's business.. very not me.... another thing i must say... hanpin: i am really sick of your voice... no offence... but u talked non-stop in the camp that u almost drove me crazy and i got headache right after the camp ends...

2008-01-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

people reading my post: I'm going crazy soon.... seems like another person is taking over me.... taking over my original self... or maybe my heart is taking over my mind... whatever it is... i got lots of tutorial to do, my room is in a mess, ... there's so much to do that i am driving myself crazy... my result was disappointing... i know what i should do yet i'm not doing what I'm supposed to... I've been listening to songs... talking on msn... visiting blogs after blogs... glancing through my tutorials... popping by the TV... argh!!! i'm angry with myself... there's too many things that i want to say... i want to type in here but they just flashed pass my mind too fast... i'm too slow to type all of them in... i don't know what i've been doing... i wanted to run badly... i think i miss running i think i shld join sports for my cca in jc... anyway before i forget... i'm telling everyone that i'm staying in PJC... some of friends advised me to go cjc, nyjc,... but I'm too lazy... I think ... and my mum just got home... i think i should go and bathe... not that I love to be dirty but... I dunno... I know i should bathe early all that stuff and I'm not doing that... It's like a baddie knowing what's right but chose not to do it... i dunno...
my mind is confused... random thoughts coming into my mind... sorry if i scared all of u... i think i just got crazy after the release of my results... maybe... or I'm just giving myself excuse... L1R5 14... i think i should cry... maybe i should... I think i shouldn't be writing all this stuff in here... as i grow, my mind gets polluted... n i think i'm starting to dislike myself... oh my oh my... i think i should stop right here... i guess i'm scaring all of u... I'm so sorry...
* this happens when qihui gets results that's not up to expectation... she goes a little crazy... but harmless (hopefully)

2008-01-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

i slept 4 hours only last night... got to do pw... don't know why but the time seems to fly... woke up early at 4.30am to do the presentation... got to iron my uniform too.... i was in a rush that i forgot to button my 2nd and 3rd button and the thing is there's only 3 buttons in total... oh my... so embarrassing... then i board the bus cos debbie not coming... forgot to contact her friends... then drop my precious hp on the bus...

today i'm proud of myself because i donated blood... i think it's so fun... i was so excited that i can't really sit still... for those who hav yet to donate their blood: don't worry... it's not painful... abit only... i going to donate again... haha...

here's my bag of blood:

2008-01-21T20:14:00.000+08:00

oh my! oh my! release of results on thurs... hope i get below 10... gd luck! haha... random again...

2008-01-20T13:32:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling sick maybe cos i've been eating a weird tasting pandan cake for days as breakfast or maybe cos forgot to eat my lunch yesterday but instead drank some diluted vinegar which claims to be beneficial to our health, it's黑醋.... but both my sis dun hav any prob after eating the pandan cake... i'm like having 2 diarrhea already... and now my stomach feels so empty... i really got a very weak stomach.... shld i go to sch tml? my stomach still hurts....

oh ya....and i miss running...haven been running besides the pe lessons i've got... i think i like running... maybe... wanted to hav early morning run yesterday but woke up late.... and for today... i guess i shld just rest cos camp feast is coming i can't afford to be sick.... looking forward to the camp but still dunno who's my pc as in i know his name but dunno who he is... haha.... wonder if i will be a good apc not with han pin as apc too... most importantly i think i may get to do the activities myself.... hehe...

i had 4 diarrhea after all... i went to sakae sushi and ate alot... i was crazy... here's my desert- sweet surrender (vanilla):

2008-01-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my 17th b-day.... it's the best b-day i've got... pj celebrated for all jan babies during the orientation, my class 08S19 celebrated with me on the 17/01, some of the west CDTOs and daddy fahmy celebrated for me after the IMT... maybe ppl think i'm mad but it's true that i spent my b-day with rifles... haha... then OG gathering... my OG... OG 21 also celebrated my b-day with pizzas... all of the above were surprise celebration... i'm really very happy and touched... they took the pain to do all these... i will always rmb my 17th b-day... not forgetting debbie's cute elmo balloon and the purse... but since i couldn't split myself... i hav yet to spend time with surf, delta'07 gals and 4i clique... so sorry... and not forgetting my siblings... bought me a cake... it's below- a piece of half eaten tiramisu cake

2008-01-19T16:19:00.001+08:00

she's the best singer ever!!! her voice is so lovely and sweet that it makes me cry...

2008-01-17T21:12:00.000+08:00

thank you 08S19! this is the first time my friends buy me a cake for my b-day... so happy and touched... cos b-day in jan... everyone forgets... when they know it's already like middle of the year... then when another half of year pass... they forget again... and it's most saddening to see ppl giving pressie to another on your b-day when u got none... i experienced it before and i know how sad it is... u feel completely useless and insignificant... i am really so glad to hav all of u as friends... u ppl give me one more reason to stay in pj... even though i'm still deciding... but we still will keep in touch right? i love my class!!! looking forward to spending my b-day in hq tml.... and also i miss all my friends and the sch campus....

2008-01-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

happy 52th b-day RV... i miss RV so much... proud to be a RVian... haha.... so random...

2008-01-11T17:57:00.000+08:00

i am having a suck-y mood now... disappointed and a little angry... i just came back from the badminton trail and i was kick out in the first round... i already did my best ..i shall not discribed anymore... i already huo chu qu le yet i was kick out... i'm not trying to blame but i even practised before gg for the trial... ths is such a great disappointment... i am so so so disappointed with myself... conclusion is i can't even play the badminton... argh!!! stupid me!!!

2008-01-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

this is the korean ricecake i made for the west outing on the 30/12. it's really nice just that it don't look nice at all.... after the outing got a bad pimple breakout... cos never apply sunblock...

here are some photos from the pj orientation... which was on 02/01 wed - 04/01 fri... it was fun esp on the 2nd day and the finale- dinner and dance... i really dun mind staying in pj even if i score below 10... pj even celebrated b-day for january babies... so touching...

currently thinking if i shld join archery or tennis...

2008-01-06T15:57:00.001+08:00

2007-12-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

26th dec- west district meeting- happythat many ppl went... not much to say... i will be busy involving with nc stuff 2 yrs down... so i was thinking maybe i shld go aj for JAE since it's the nearest to hq and i quite like the sch... doesn't mean i dun like PJ... dun get me wrong...

2007-12-27T17:41:00.000+08:00

25th dec- merry christmas.... a bit boring during christmas not much pressie too...

2007-12-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

24th dec- 6.30am wake up to go wet market to buy some more ingredients to cook ministrone soup for today's delta christmas celebration... it's quite easy to cook just that preparation of ingredients a bit troublesome... it's a bit oily and not salty enough.. i thought it was not bad too... i cook at least 5 litre of soup... never cook such big share before... here's a pict of it:

the celebration was fun... we also got turkey, grilled fish, ice-cream, salad, cake,... i went to my relative's hse halfway for their celebration... i was busy eating the whole day... haha =D

recount on 16/12

2007-12-20T13:26:00.000+08:00

recount on 16/12- baking time.. my sis good friend- qiying was here to bake... baked brownie... a bit too oily though... and since there's left over ingredients... we bake cookies together.. but not enough butter... the butter cookies became bread... haha...had fun baking!!!

3rd week of CLT course

2007-12-20T12:27:00.000+08:00

3rd week of CLT course- it's the most imporatant week with POP...

1st day- full swing POP rehearsal cos it's on that day... we were baked in the sun... holding the rifle and doing arm drill with it....here r some pict... some i kop from clement's blog... so some credit to him..

tracy from S5...

Hazwan from S5

proudly present our rifle!!!

it rained alot that day... we waited in the MPH... i prayed for rain in the morning because that time a few ppl ard me wanted rain... but when i saw the spirit of the course... wanting so much for the parade and to stop the rain... i prayed harder for rain to stop...

here's pict taken just before POP...while waiting for rain to stop and taken the last few photos in CDT rank...

during POP... donning of ranks:

roses given to the girls by daddy fahmy from the hands of mummy hazimah:

during performance:

after performance... we grabbed as many chickens as we could to celebrate after that. here's a piece of evidence:

2nd day- ethics and decorum, intro to SAF, course cert presentation, debrief, out-processing... dinner at burger king with S5 and few sirs

3rd day- NE ambassador talk + dinner at burger king again+rushing to 1/2 gaoxiao chalet from JP.... we went round SAFTI.. went up the tower... saw the rehearsal for the POP from the OCS (officer cadet school)... the rehearsal was grand... there were girls there of course... i'm so proud of them...

4th day- hasiff birthday- bought a pound cake and some candles. celebrated hasiff b-day near his chalet... yitong, wini, hongru and i...wini and 1 slept 2am and wake up at 5am to rush back to boonlay for the NE abassador course at Singapore discovery centre..... during the course... i tried SAR21... it's so so so easy to aim and shoot with that... evening... we celebrated hasiff b-day again at mac... then rush back to pasir ris for class chalet...had girl talk with my dearest shao... before wini and i met up with hasiff and yitong at my chalet then we go walk walk... after that met chaiying and pengjie at the downtown entrance... so we walked back together but were locked outside... actually the gaoxiao chalet was not successful... cos very little ppl came...

5th day- ate with gaoxiao and hasiff... then wini, hasiff and i had a great time baking cookies that turn out to be so hard... but we had fun... we bake ginger snaps... XD

* the picts at the SAFTI is not ready yet... pai seh...

2nd week of CLT course

2007-12-20T11:34:00.000+08:00

2nd week of CLT course- this is the start of a hiong week... cos more tests coming up... mutuals!!! and here's where the body get lethargic after a week... most importantly... the POP rehearsal...

1st day- whole day lectures... shouldn't go into detail... the lunch was nice... mutton briyani..

2nd day- i'm the i.c... the first command was a bit cork up then other commands were ok... but i think my voice was a bit soft... that day was the day we got scolded and stuff... we got a coke from sir which i didn't get a sip at all... sad :( anyway that day was the situatianal test stations and scenerio planning exercise. there was one station where my group can't make a stretcher... we got critisized at but that's ok... lesson learnt: leaders must also learn to listen... there's only one leader at a time... we also got to play paintball and archery which we missed during the adventure training due to rain... i simply love archery... if i dun join shooting then i shall join archery.... XD

3rd day- tracy was supposed to be the i.c but i think because she got a sore throat so itong became the i.c.. debbie became the i.c of the course... there was nth much... just more lectures... sir clement bought as some food and drinks... thank you!!!

4th day- IMT and trainfire or arm drill mutuals... i was too nervous for the mutual and the IMT i not sure cos the score i not sure... a bit disappointed with myself...

book- in... stay the night at HQ again... had wet weather program POP rehearsal... and performance rehearsal

5th day- live firing 100m range in foxhole... i did quite badly... there's sth wrong with that rifle... very hard to chamber in the rounds... many AIAI... so fustrating....for the IFC or drill mutual... i thought mine was not bad... cos i dun feel as nervous.. but ma'am said i didn't do as well...

POP rehearsal at night till 9++ after that i had blue black at my hip bone and one at my shoulder......

6th day... rehearsal for the POP performance...

here's a pict we randomly took....

1st week of CLT course

2007-12-18T15:46:00.000+08:00

1st week of CLT course- this was the start of a memorable, fun-loving as well as hated course... it's emotionally complicating... hated the course for being so tiring... sleep at 12.30 or 1++ am... waking up at the latest 5am... wear no.4... get stressed... physically torturing myself to make sure i'm awake during lectures and alert for everthing... most importantly praying i'm not the i.c for the course... that's what i prayed for... obviously it worked... even though we r broken up physically... we r still bonded...

1st day- lectures on team building and team learning. the activity on the ice-breaking using b-dates was fun... we also took photo in two groups... mainly alpha and bravo... unfortunately, my syn 5 was broken apart... i was in bravo.

2nd day- lectures on facilitating and coaching

3rd day- adventure training for bravo and first aid for alpha... there's rapalling, rock wall climbing, archery, paintball, flying fox. we learned not only to do the stuff... we learnt how to tie a double eight knot and how to be belay and stuff like that. i love the flying fox... there's a steep drop... then before u know... u r travelling to the other end... unfortunately it rained and we didn't try on archery and paintball... it's not that i never try them before but still quite disappointed... while waiting for the rain to stop, half of syn 5 discussed abt the POP performance... it was pretty hard deciding what to perform... i still rmb my earhole bled like nobody business when it dropped out and i tried to force it in again... that night... my sis forced it in for me while i screamed... that was partly because i pulled out the stud way before i was told to...

4th day- first aid... shannon was ic of the day and wini was ic for the syn... we learnt to do Cardio Pulmonary Resuscitation (CPR) and i got full marks for theory by luck. there's also the lessons on fracture management, soft tissue injuries & haemorrhage,personal hygiene,respiratory injuries, burns... also not forgetting practical for CPR. when chocking Heimlich manoeuvre or chest thrust... even though i'm a certified heartsaver now and i am expected to do CPR but i think i forget all of them... i think i shld find time to revise... or else the person dying will die in my hands...

5th day- Method of instruction, dining-in rehearsal and dining -in... so here r some photos from the dining-in. all the ppl in no. 2.

whole of syn 5 but sadly without our pc and apcfrom the left- me, yitong, winifred, samantha, daddy fahmy (apc), tracy, xinran and fangqi
syn 5 twins. west got 2 twins here is the first pair... Hazwan on the left and Hazwin on the right. the second pair is sophia and her sis.

daddy can really pose... here r 4 of the many poses:

from left- clement, sholihin, fahmy

RVHS CLT and ex- CDT

the WEST!!!

xinran, me, debbie:P

xinran, me and fangqi :D

#01- self timing pict- sophia, me, xinran, debbie

#02- self timing pict- sophia, me, xinran, debbie

main course (fish)... i heard the steak and chicken were nicer. the fish is a bit fishy... before this there's appetizer- chicken salad and bread with butter and mushroom soup... anyone got picts? contact me if u have..... the table etiquette was a bit troublesome...

the desert... we got cheese cake... before this i went to toilet... saw mdm siti... she said her shoe was too small and since mine is too big so we exchanged... that's where more things... more complication comes... i wish i didn't go toilet after all... boo hoo.. :'(

we book in that night... here is two pict we randomly took in our bunk...

friends forever!!! syn 5 girls!!!

6th day- Orienteering and train fire

7th day- the first rehearsal for POP performance

delta chalet 21/11-23/11

2007-12-18T14:00:00.000+08:00

delta chalet 21/11-23/11
i was too lazy... so i didn't appear until the shopping for bbq stuff ended... but i was late anyway... we went to boon lay first to ensure seats i think if my memory is not failing me before heading to pasir ris. some ppl got off at bedok to get some bbq food... like the stingray and stuff... the first day xinhang was telling us abt handwriting analysis... now i so gg to buy a book on that... it's gg to be interesting... then the bbq was the best.. not at the starting but very good nearing to the end... it's the first time i ate so full during the bbq... i ate 1 drunken prawn, abt 1 or 2 stingray (it was nicely seasoned, wrapped and cooked slowly in aluminium foil... ), 4 chicken drumlet ( 3 of which is also wrapped and cooked slowly in aluminium foil... 2 of which we seam it with satay sauce... the meet is so tender and nice... feel like eating one now.. :P), 1 small piece of sotong (oh... i rmb shredding that with a satay stick and stir fry it in butter... very Q... very nice...) and many more...

the 2nd day... breakfast, we bought and eat in the chalet... i had the $1.95 breakfast from burgerking... it's bagel and i love it.... mac's bagel also nice... i like the pancake, sausage macmuffin and big breakfast.... the long john also nice... haha... i'm such a glutton... then not long later we went to escape since there's some free tickets given to us... i love the inverter the most... turn ppl upside down... haha... and i hate the haunted hse... wini grabbed me very tightly... but forgiven of course... delta's scream frighten me the most... then the rest of the day was pretty boring... i played my phone.... i got lots of game... hasiff counted... he said is 78 if i 'm not wrong... that's a lot... at night we watched enchanted... not forgetting the dinner i had it's Ja Jang Myun... it's not as spectacular as the one i ate before but not bad though... i love korean food... and also their drama... haha... enchanted was funny and nice... recommended but not to watch more than once... wanted to watch bee movie too but yitong wanted the enchanted... but i got no regret...

3rd day was just packing and gg home... as far as i rmb... hope to hav a outing again with delta gals... 24th dec's outing is coming...eve of christmas... :D

collection of uniforms for clt course

2007-12-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

20/11 is the collection of uniforms for clt course... we're supposed to collect no. 1, no. 2, no. 3, 2 no.4.... 5 sets of uniform at a one go... good luck to us... the no. 2 is not very nice... i brought a large bag... so i managed to carry all of them... quite ok for me... it was also the first time i meet tracy, fangqi, nick and dixon from nanhua and some other ppl who are also there to collect their uniforms obviously... oh... i almost forgot abt the briefing we had for the course so it shld be second time meeting them... we r lucky to hav yitong's mommy fetch us home.. like mother like daughter... both yitong and her mommy are nice ppl:D

grad night 19/11

2007-12-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

grad night 19/11- it was not as nice as expected... that day i bathe and left very early at 1pm cos i'm gg shaw hse to make my hair and to do make up. i ate lunch and went to the nokia shop to sign up new plan and of course to get my new phone. i wanted to get the nokia 5610 Xpressmusic but it's rather expensive and i'm supposed to buy my phone myself, so i ended up buying the thinner one which is nokia 5310 of the same series. a bit annoying. then, my mum and i took 190 to shaw hse. oh... just before i forget... i saw a primary sch mate and Stefan in lot one... so coincidental.. i'm not gg to say what exactly happened in shaw hse... but the thing is i dun really like my hair very much... it's nice i agree but it is not what i wanted... i wanted to appear simple and nice but all the adults said that i must go for dramatic kind... the hair was pretty not much what i imagined it to be and the make up was a bit thick... angel was there to suffer too... but after that the make up was quite OK after much drinking and eating... so i think it's still acceptable... not bad.. must thank Janet for that. she's really very nice. besides voluntarily doing my make up... she also gave me some of her stuff and borrowed me the earing... angel and i were late for the grad night... but luckily the celebration haven start... the performances were quite good.. kah sing's dance was cool... but the food wasn't up to what we expected.... i was lucky to win swenson's cash voucher for the lucky draw- 0202- not too bad... i went home quite early... cos i wanted to hitch a ride home in yiming's car... so i didn't take much pict... very little in my camera... so anyone who has the pict with me inside... pls send them to me... thanks!!!
*yiming bought the phone that i wanted to buy: nokia 5610 Xpressmusic.... if i bought the phone i wanted then i will hav the same phone as hers... argh!!

this is a pict of 4icecubex!!

sunday- just before the grad night

2007-12-15T19:17:00.000+08:00

sunday- just before the grad night-
i met lihe at je at 10. we were both late. we headed to marina square at city hall. she end up buying 3 pairs of footwear. 2 sandals and a heels for grad of course. we went over to a music shop- earz and i bought the music box... but is need to wound as u listen to one. i really love it. i got 2 of this already. one plays "chim chim cherry" and this plays "over the rainbow"... i gg to collect a series of them. we also went to sasa to buy some last minute for our skin. and meet heling before buying scarf. i got my scarf too at bossini... mine is pure cotton milky white and furry and soft to touch. it's 21 at promotion price. i love it so much:P i can't find at other place like lot one. most probably is at CBD so stuff is much better. lihe owe me $51... and now still haven return... so i'm quite broke now:[

4icecubex chalet 14/11- 16/11

2007-12-15T16:05:00.000+08:00

4icecubex chalet 14/11- 16/11- we bought the bbq stuff as usual first... only two guys came early to help.. how pathetic but so expected... starting of fire was the same case, xian wen unexpectedly help out but really grateful to him or else it will be like girls starting fire again. zhirong and angel was also there to help out. as usual i help start the fire. my method is the build hse method with the middle hollow and the lighted fire starter in the middle. as usual nobody believe that my method will work but it did as usual. maybe i was never convincing. whatever the case is, we end up with a very nice bbq pit... glowing red all the way with us added small little charcoal occasionally to make sure there's enough charcoal. the prawns and chicken mid joint that we cook was superb... oh and forgetting that the ppl screamed at me for putting too much margarine. i was also stupid to put margarine on the otah leaf. i also dunno why i butter it. mrs phua, her daughter and mr desmon lim came. mrs phua's daughter very cute. not forgetting mr ong who called. i think he spent quite a sum because he spoke to quite a no. of ppl. i got a very bad headache too maybe because i was by the bbq pit for whole night.... i slept quite early that day... Zzz

the 2nd day. i woke up quite early but all were still sleeping. hungry, i waited for the ppl to wake up and went to food court to eat fish porridge. the rest of the day was pretty boring. then got the murderer game involving all the ppl there. it was really fun. angel was the ultimate one. nobody thought she was the murderer and she managed to kill everyone. there's a xian wen "concert" after that... we laugh like crazy... then we go watch movie. before that we went to eat dinner. while eating, the guys were talking abt what to wear for grad night. as there are very little options for guys to wear... it was really difficult to decide. at this point of time, i felt lucky that i'm a girl not a guy. they also talked abt what they like girls to wear. someone (it's best not to mention names here) said that he like girls with spaghetti top and very short shorts... i got very disgusted- so do all guys love girls to expose?- ... we went to watch stardust. it's really nice. we sat at the 3rd and 4th row on the right of the theatre and i got a slightly swollen eyes after that... it was a happy ending... i thought the girl gg to die and got quite upset... luckily i didn't cry or else very malu.

the 3rd day... we got to wake uo quite early for PAE briefing. we were late that day because we left the place later than we wanted despite mrs phua telling us to leave early during the bbq. i felt stupid carrying a large bag to the hall. after that angel, heling, lihe, siyang and i went to mac at vivo. we had our beloved $2 breakfast. after that other than siyang, all of us accompanied lihe to buy her grad night stuff. we manage to get her to buy the halter black dress after much time spent persuading lihe... it was beautiful. since there is no time. we decided to meet on Sunday again to buy the other stuff. if i'm not wrong... at night i was out with delta girls and we ate at secret recipe. i ate chicken lasagne and there's sth in my food ... some plastic. argh! we accompanied wini to buy her dress and then we ate at hagen daz. 3 ppl share 3 pathetically small scoop pf ice-cream. since we were quite broke, we dun hav a choice. no wonder the waiter stun a bit when we said we finished ordering.

gina's birthday 13/11

2007-12-15T15:16:00.000+08:00

gina's birthday 13/11- i met shao at lot one first appearing with contacts for first time. we planned to pierce ear hole but the shop was closed. so we waited and walked around the mall. shao got a tamagochi for herself at kiddy palace before we pierce our ear at bits & pieces. it wasn't painful but seems like muscle ache. we met my sis along the way and then met jade and gina along the way too. how interesting. We got gina a plush dog for her... went sakae sushi to eat. then walk ard the vivo. cos jade and gina just finished their bio papers so we couldn't go archade since they r wearing sch uniform. we went to pets safari and then to the top floor to soak our legs. but i needed to go off early to meet my mum so didn't go back home with them. we feel kinda sad cos we know it's very hard to meet up as often as we want next time we go to our junior college. but we promised to meet up as soon as i can. i am now wondering if surf can meet up before or during christmas. cos i got stuff to give them. hope our friendship last forever and ever. i really enjoyed myself that day. :P

2007-11-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

boo... though Os have already ended but i'm deprived from the com... both my sis using com and there's no com for me! my younger sis bathing so i can use now... urgh! only few minutes left.... not fair... while i have to pack my things nicely for my sis... eh... nvm. i'll get to go out with shao, jade and gina tml to celebrate gina's birthday... this whole week is so packed wed to fri will be 4Icecubex chalet then go straight to sch from there for PAE and i obviously need to bring my sch uniform and shoes over... a bit xian la... my sis is here... gtg... urgh... hope we got a com each...

2007-11-02T15:57:00.000+08:00

so xian i still slacking now... wonder how am i gg to do after the Os... maybe bored to death.... maybe i can go work in the zoo or go do some voluntary work somewhere like the SPCA.... haha... anyway i've decided to go AJ after JAE- just take mrt then dun need change train or bus than can reach liao.... that is if i can go... PAE still need to stick to PJ cos i very lan.... too lazy... have been slacking for the whole year.... haha... =P

2007-11-02T12:29:00.000+08:00

the slacker is out to slack again... went to MacDonald's just after the paper and got myself sausage macmuffin with egg... haha.. Os ending soon- still left only social studies and geog, chem and phy P1... that's pretty fast... looking forward to all the outings with friends... so let's do sth useful, like recalling how's the paper for this week...

mon: eng paper 1

"thanks to my superb memory ... i forgot everything abt the paper already..."

eng paper 2

"there aren't many points to include for the summary and that's not a good sign. went to b.k for lunch since there's a 2 break for us. can't finish fries and coke so we packed them nicely for the guys in 4I. they had fun playing with fries!"

math paper 1

"this was really easy... sure get above 70... but that's not a good sign too since there's such thing as Moderation. i heard there's one particular year the range for math for A1 was above 91... that's so scary!"

tues: math paper 2

"i thought the paper was easy too... paper 1 is easier but angel think otherwise. that woman even copy her ans nicely onto the ques paper... cos she said there's too much time left. so fustrating i only left 15 min..."

wed: HMT paper 1 and 2

"First time in my life i finish my both papers during exam... so happy... the compo was quite well written that's what i think... paper 2 also not bad... still hav time to check... that's first time... "

today: phy paper 2

"this is so much easier than our prelim whereby i got a F9 b4 mod.... i expect to get at least a B3? it's a miracle that i finished the paper since i don't hav time to finish 20 marks worth of ques during prelim.... and to add on: i even checked through my paper.... i was so happy upon completion and was thinking how i shld check the paper since i haven been checking my paper for 2 years i think.... "

i not sure how much time i spent here but i'm gg to slack for 1 more hour before i pack my room and dig out the ss stuff... the paper 1 must get almost to full... haha... a bit ambitious.. =P

2007-10-26T18:57:00.000+08:00

just to blog a bit before i pia...
let me recall on the papers
mon 22/10: a math paper1 (still hav a small part never finish, feel like banging my head against the wall. everyone said that the paper was easy)

tues 23/10: a math paper2 (pretty ok... just that ques 6 a bit tricky... both i-j and relative)

wed 24/10: chem paper2 (the ques a bit weird... but it's easier that i thought it would be)

thurs 25/10: geog paper 2 (the most weird is the Q6- population and agriculture... a bit no link)

today 26/10: history elective (i think i did badly... china seq part b was weird... i think the humanities Cambridge ques setters are trying to kill students with their ques... and the prob is we need to include at least 1 humanity)

die liao... O levels not easy at all....

anyway for PAE i gg PJ... anyone pei me? JAE try AJ if not stay in PJ and be elite in there.... muahahaha...
i just wasted at least 1/2hr here... *sigh*

the first two years

2007-10-08T12:44:00.000+08:00

since i'm eating my lunch, it gives me the excuse to blog... eating porridge and reading blog then do some blogging... hope i'm not wasting too much time... i admit that i'm still sick... but it doesn't give me the excuse to slack la... anyway after reading some blogs i decided to blog some of the memorable stuff from the past 4 years... hmmm... allow me to recall first cos i got extremely poor memory... mr ong also thinks so...

1st day of school- the first day of the four years of school term... i went to sch with my sister early in the morning to the west coast campus... cos she also rvian... i was excited... cos first day... some more new uniform, new shoe, new bag,... everything feel so different... i remembered i insisted that my sis must accompany me until the hall is opened... i waited until there's quite a no of ppl before gg in... i anxiously looked ard before noticing a chair with a paper printed with bold letters- 1G- i sat down ...near me is none other then elin and shaoying... they are my first two friends in RV... it went on like that... i sitted there and daydream as usual... then elin tapped my shoulders to tell me i never zip the zip at the side of the uniform... i was obviously embarrassed... and smiled at them before zipping... tt's so careless of me... from then on the first thing i check after wearing my uniform is to check if the zip is zipped... haha... so from then on three of us become friends and went home together.... at least for the first few weeks before elin went over to wini and her clique...

Shaoying, qiHui, Elise became friends.... we called ourself the S.H.E as u can see... that's our name and elise loved S.H.E so dearly... yah so we call ourself that... is a bit bu yao lian la cos we r not chio or cute like the S.H.E... we had a great time together... we do all sort of things together... i rmb shao and i teasing at elise and xiangyi... tt's a bit bad... and what i did backfire at me instead... in the end i initiated an anti-33 society to prove my innocence...err sorry xiangyi... we don't mean to be mean... just joking ard... i also rmb gina and derek as our chairperson... i dunno why a lot of the ppl in 1g dislike gina so much... she might be fat at that time... but she's nice... we must have hurt her... cos i rmb she ended up crying... i also rmb ms linda chan saying how ugly she was when she was young and how she hated herself... but frankly speaking... she is so chio now... i rmb yiming topped the class for mid-year while chaiying topped the class for end of year... and mrs phua who just joined the sch... at that time her lessons were boring... all of us fell asleep... yiming said she was the only one awake.... that's so sad... mrs phua must be damoralised teaching us... we r really sorry abt that... but we thought that u r a nice person and your teaching is so much better now... jiayoux!!! last but not least the event of the year... talentime... i rmb wearing a long skirt and a jacket with a sleeveless tanktop... i refused to take off my jacket cos i shy... haha... i still dun like to wear sleeveless... even when leena keep pulling my jacket... that was the last talentime of rv... we received our class tee that day... designed by marian... also not to forget jerone and his mother...

2nd year in RV- we moved to commonwealth mrt there.... the place was pretty ok... just that i like the west coast campus the best... ms lisa khang was our form teacher... stafen and chaiying were our chairperson... i rmb elise and i were excited about the saga seed at the gate leading to the track there... we collected a lot of them during recess... the cleaner also gave us some... the sch there have squirrels just that it's quite small and skinny... but cute.. there were fruits in the sch too if i am not wrong there's rambutan, sui weng and mango... 2g guys were quite bian tai... i rmb i heard someone saying abt the gathering of the guys at somone's place.... only antonio, stefan and jerone didn't go.... the sightseeing club with shengda as the prseident i guess... while stefan on the other said he wants to have a sightseeing club to see guys... i rmb teaming up with jerone for home econ... i was drove up the wall a few times... jerone wash the pot and pans also take ages... i was cooking almost everything myself so i was almost the last to cook finish everytime... luckily i like to cook or else i would have gone mad and sent IMH.... err... that's a bit extreme... luckily i still got an A for home econ... also the swimming lessons... that was fun but i missed the dives and the exam... so i didn't get the cert.... i rmb going for the bull's eye competition with gina and jade... the competition really brought the 3 of us so much closer... the incident that happened in the DNT lab was really scary... i was so scared that my hands went numb... also because of the competition i cannot spend the last day of the 2year sch term with the other 2gaoxiaos ... i heard that all of u all cried ... i wished i was ard ... even if i fail to an wei all of u maybe i can cry with u guys... worst of all i missed the 2g chalet cos of the combat engineering camp... i am so regretful... so sorry... i will miss all of u...

opps seems like i just spent my 1.5 hr here... i shall go back and study... i will come back again to tell my life in the icecubex... see ya!

2007-10-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday last day of school... forget to bring my camera... haix... had a fun time taking pictures... i ended my day in sch with phy remedial... so sad... shld have gone out with friends and pon(opps) and i was rather sick for the whole of this week... few words to describe the 4 years- "regretful", "joyous" and of course "memorable". Regretful- cos always in my own little world esp lower sec. Joyous- greatly entertained by mr song, dixon and few others and enjoyed doing things with all of u ppl: 2gaoxiao, 4icecubex, ncc delta girls and SURF. rmb the swimming lesson with 2g the most, even though it's rather embarrassing... esp angel's (tablemate aka one of my best buddies) drawing on my arm.... haha...
just want to say i luv all of u... thank you for making these 4 years a wonderful experience for me...

2007-10-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

today's assembly is prelim results analysis.... seems like the mod a lot... i think so la cos i heard bio like mod 4 grades if not wrong... so there is some hope for me... i shall not waste more time cos 19 more days to Os only... anyway i think i not coming to blog anymore till end of Os... jiayoux!!!

Os coming

2007-09-28T15:53:00.000+08:00

21 days more and it's O levels... so everybody let's mug... pia... whatever it is... i am not gg to bother abt the prelims any more... looking at the bright side... my L1R5 improved by 12... but currently still not eligible for admission to any jc... nvm i can go work... maybe can go zoo work and volunteer at the SPCA... after Os i planning to go nj or acjc... see how first... today not feeling well... bad sorethroat... drank a lot water liao but still not much diff... must take care of myself... cannot fall sick... even though i say don't bother abt my marks... not true la... extremely demoralised... but i'm just trying... trying to remain as cheerful as ever... so sad that can't even cry out... i don't think anyone know what i mean.... yah... just continue mugging...

star

2007-09-19T16:52:00.001+08:00

lala... hope this works

2007-09-19T15:50:00.000+08:00

so stressed... so stressed...got a headache so i decided to blog and rest for a while.....
today HCI came for a talk... how is it possible for me to go there... i don't even know if i can go nj or not... even if i can get in i will be even stressed... maybe i shld just stick to nj as my choice for the moment... sian... seemed like i did badly for my prelims... currently only a. maths A1... first time got 80+ but what's the point... i'm failing phy, eng and i doubt i did well for chem, ch(hist), geog and chi ... i'm still pinning hope on my e.math... hope i get a A1.... whateva the case is... things done cannot be undone... let's not cry over spilled milk and carry on with life... whether if there's moderation or not i think it won't make much difference... the most don't go to sch for first 3 weeks... i will do much better in Os....
way to go!!

early celebrations

2007-09-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

today we had early celebrations for shaoying's birthday! i overslept cos i went shopping with my mum (anyway, i bought my grad night dress. 一见钟情 so decided to buy that... still left the shoes...) very sorry to shaoying cos i was late and she wasn't feeling well... we went to raffles place and look at the crompler bag that shao wanted to buy... maybe i shld get one too... we ate some icecream... i dirtied my shirt as usual... then shao, gina, jade and i went to dunno 鼎what to eat... we went k-box. we had a great time singing. after that we insisted on buying a set of clothes for shao... hope she will really wear it for the next gathering... a tank top and a mini skirt... time was getting late so we went home.. i really had a great time with them. together we r the S.U.R.F... the xian part is that tml need go sch and take back paper... hope i get A1 for a-math.... good luck to me... way to go for Os... =D

PRELIM IS OVER

2007-09-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!! prelim is over... too happy dunno what to say... haha... for those who hav bio... gd luck!
sorry for not updating the blog... but i got update my spaces.... can go and see

2007-05-27T16:46:00.000+08:00

this will my last post before my prelims... got a lot of homework, need to revise and then also need to pack my room... very busy... so i'm gg to make this post a short one.... nothing much happened... just that i am rather unlucky... i knocked my head against the blue pole at the railing of the container block recently.... and lost my ss corrections on the way to sch, which mean i only have the time to sch left to redo everything.... nth much though... that's all i guess... aim to get a 7 for the prelims... so i'm gg back to do my hw now... mug mug mug...

*miss part As...

2007-05-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

actually wanted to blog yesterday... but my sis using com. anyway, mid-year is finally over. feel a little more relax... went out with nc ppl yesterday. spent a lot of money, no good food for me on the following weeks liao... spiderman 3 movie is rather nice... dunno why some ppl think otherwise. that day a bit unlucky, my bag got infested with red ants... dunno why they went in cos my breakfast inside was free from ants. it's the 2nd time in the year already... my books underneath my table in class also got lots of ants. i somehow was lucky, the ants didn't bite me and i had to watse time carefully blow and sweep them away. so sad couldn't out with shao or yiming they all... dunno fen shen shu la...

today- everyone suffer from post-exams... all very tired ... but during pe, i had a fun time playing with yiming and yuge...simply love swings! haha... a bit childish... we also tried carrying one another... so fun... but got even tired after that... so the rest of the day i couln't concentrate but daydream... haha... that's sth common... always daydream and staring ino space... sorry if any of you caught be staring ... maybe i was daydreaming... especially during a.math exam... half the time i was daydreaming... at first thought that i could rely on a.math ... but i guess i flung it =( ...

2007-04-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

hi exams and more exams coming up... rather stressed but i thought that friday's paper is a good start... maybe shouldn't pin too much hope on it cos everytime if i think that something will do well it will normally turn out to be a failure... that's rather bad... anyway... good luck to everybody... do your best- that's the most important... i charging my mp3 so decided to pop by... bye... gtg back to mug:)

2007-04-16T18:12:00.000+08:00

today just had some time to come back... going tuition with yiming at just education for english later... yiming is currently in my hse... anyway i haven been checking for mails for mths so for those who sent me mails lately the mails poof disappear ... i just reactivated it ... sorry... re-send if it's anything important... tata gtg :)

2007-04-15T16:12:00.000+08:00

for those who r curious why my eyes were so swollen on fri... i only can say that i cried alot the night before ... don't ask what happened ... that's all i am gg to say. anyway, i haven been feeling well for the past week... don't have appetite to eat and diarrhea... the chinese physician said that my wei4 and my chang2 was that well all along from young... in other words i got sensitive stomach... i think that what she means... plus mid coming getting a little stressed... by right i am supposed to finish studying geog as planned but i haven even finish one chapter... die liao... so everything is gg from bad to worse i suppose i mean my health condition... always been like that short speeches my hands will also become cold and clammy... haiz...
on medication... so sad... :(
medicine so bitter...

2007-04-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

haiz... haven been blogging for days. just had my NAPFA today ... still not very satisfied with my score. aimed to get full marks. if i could jump 2cm more for standing board jump and do 2 more incline pull-ups i would have gotten full marks for all the 5 items... so sad:( if nothing goes wrong... shld be able to get 28 ba ... i think... since running below 14 min will get myself an A... not bad actually... just that i am older since my birthday is before the NAPFA so i got to work harder...

anyway... there is something that i need to clarify... i don't usually say 'hi!' to the guys for example sec 2 classmates not because i a.p or what ... just that it's not very natural for me... u guys got to understand... i was bullied by many ppl during primary sch days ( maybe because i was small and rather softspoken) esp by the guys... and i hated guys to the core so i hardly spoke to any guys and avoided when possible. so how can u possibly want someone like me to actually say 'hi'... i was once someone who didn't care at all abt the guys... not that now i think all of them good though... besides the guys, when i wave to ppl... sometimes the person seems reluctant to wave back... it's rather dissppointing...so i sometimes really thought that i shouldn't say hi to ppl unless they wave at me or if we r closer friends... so next time if u want me to wave to u ... wave to me first... i dun wish to be like waving to myself in the end...

2007-03-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

feeling very very tired nowadays... so currently not in normal state... got a bit of mood swings here and there :p nth much to say la... juat that i am happy that i am gg to be promoted soon- gg to be 2nd sgt... anyway for the phobias i wrote abt myself ... i thought that the idea was interesting ... got a list of them given by ms dora lee.

key:
acousticophobia--- fear of noise
(i get headaches when i am exposed to loud noise like rock song for quite some time)
nyctophobia--- fear of the dark

2007-03-13T10:02:00.000+08:00

march holi camp - so so tired... slept not more than 5 hrs in total... the juniors still complain... complain the milo complain the food ... walao!!! if it's last time they might vomit out the food... last time the milo taste like hot plain water, the food also can't make it but nobody complained cos it's camp la rite...not chalet leh... this year is the best food during all the ug camps i attended...plus got goody bags.... first time in hist.... they shld know that they are xin fu de xiao hai....

2007-03-07T18:39:00.000+08:00

mon. went to turf city for cross country. ran 3.7km... the run was quite fast but very tiring... still having muscle ache... didn't ran as i expected... but i tried my best. came in 66th in the competitive race. top 10 in the hse... shld feel happy ba... during the run, i thought i was gg to faint... feel like sleepy too. before that went to vivo to eat, so i happen to pass by candy empire... so many nice candies... :P

tues. extremely unluckily. 1. woke up late, almost late for school
2. phy SPA appratus got problem, took 30min to set up
3. eat food drop food
4. step on dog shit :(

today(wed). nothing much just that too many things happen in the class.... dun want to relate them out too.....also i swear i didn't extend my recess time on purpose... i was out to change when me and heling saw a big group of our class ppl rush down... i asked chenda and he said it's recess time... lesson is over....

2007-02-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

boohoo... CNY is ending so soon... didn't do much (didn't cut the hair that i wanted to, didn't paint my room). but still got do some interesting stuff like cip at science centre - the kids are so cute... too bad wini and hongru didn't come... me and hang taught the twirler.

cross country coming soon... didn't run lately, so went to the gym today to run. hope that i can at least squeeze into the top 50 again. :D

[i bought a lot of things on 15/02/07 at PMK... the clothes very cute -*wink*]

2007-02-15T17:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday is valentines' day but common test was round corner and ncc ppl (gal) initially settle to not enchange presents ... so i didn't buy any. so sorry... i will give after CNY. really grateful to those who gave pressies to me, happy valentins' day to all of u too...

whee! common test is over and CNY coming which means hong bao ...but just got back my phy test just now... FAIL again... partially because i didn't finish doing lots of ques ... hope i won't need to drop any subjects :( i just got back home and just eaten my toast with parmesan cheese... so nice!!
gg shopping later... bb

o-level

2007-02-09T21:26:00.000+08:00

wee! o-level chi result is already out... got a A2- a little disappointed but considering that i didn't finish the chi compo. i think i shld be happy.... i dunno why... but i dun seem to feel anything at all . i am neither happy nor sad... it's like- ok loh A2 then A2. but i think must work much harder and get all A1 for my subj ( i know is a bit hard but i will do my best nevertheless). still considering if i shld go to tamasek poly... feel like studying veterinary technology there... but it's like at tampanis ... so far from hse ... most probably not liao bah... then nj shld be my next option...

2007-02-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

today i am so tired...angel and i walked from Clarke Quay to Outram Park (it's two stations away). then cos we walk the wrong way then u-turn and walked back to people's park before walking towards central mall. all just because of the NYAA booklets! a bit stupid :( haix... wu hua ke shuo...
we also bought some food to eat along the way... HAHA... the curry puff is so nice! :D

tml got math test got to mug... time to study liaox....

2007-02-04T14:20:00.000+08:00

i just changed my blogskin. love it! anyway i haven been blogging for like 6 mths cos found it quite useless though, since nobody reading also... common tests r coming, feeling a little stressed but dun noe why i can't get the mood to sit down and do my stuff. since cny coming, i think i shld go pack and paint my room and get a new hairdo or sth.

tues- sec 1s coming, feeling excited and worried since wini and xinhang is currently at nz, so i hav to handle the little juniors with miang. got some sweets for them. hope that xinhang, miang, wini and me myself can help make them love nc too (of course not because of sweets, i dun think it will do the trick anyway) .

aiyo! long time didn't blog got too many stuff to say.
in short: i hope to have delta gal outing and 2gaoxiao outing sooner + can faster churn out class tee (provided i can see the class spirit that's missing) that's all. :D

sad and disappointed

2006-07-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

i hav been too busy nowadays.... life is so unlucky for me..... i am still very + extremely disappointed with myself for what i hav got during spec course... i first time cried so hard in front of my platoon mates and other ppl... i think they were a bit shocked... it was also rather embarrassing... i dunno why... but i think that 2nd sgt rank 3rd sgt rank differs quite a lot... to me- i think it means that u r being recognised and appreciated on what u hav done in the 3 years in ncc... of course u must hav the basic standard... if possible... i really want to know why i wasn't being chosen as a 2nd sgt.... i really dunno what hav i done wrong or where in me is not up to standard or not up to expectation...

i look back and i could vividly rmb that i had insisted to join ncc despite my mum's strong disapproval... i still rmb i told somebody who didn't like nc at first to make nc her life... she did it and i am proud of her... i still rmb the days when i spent 3 to 4 hrs polishing my boots everyday during sec 1 even when i could not make it shine no matter how i do it and staying up to 12am to iron my own no.4 ..... insisting that i must iron my own uniform because i am proud of it even my mum insist on ironing it for me... trying my best in whatever i do in nc even when it means that i will fail in my exams.... BUT... what makes me feels demoralised and disappointed is what i got back... 3rd sgt was what i got back... i dunno to laugh at my pure innocence or what ... but no matter what.... i promise myself that i will still do my best... HOWEVER, i think that i will never forget this... it's like a scar that will stay through my nc life or maybe my whole life... maybe some ppl think tt i am exaggerating... or maybe juat trying to get anybody else's symphathy.... but this is of course not the case... but i can understand... it's hard to think in my shoes... it just that i really cannot get over this choking grief and the overwelming feeling...

kayak

2006-06-10T11:26:00.000+08:00

i didn't post for quite some time liao... yah... so kayaking 1* course finally ended... not that i dun like kayaking but it is rather tiring... i intend to go for the 2* course... dunno got time not... i am very sorry i accidentally hit a guy on his face or eyes (not sure) with the paddle... hope he is ok... haha... dun know his name... so sorry... and then i accidentally hit wini with the kayak... also very sorry... dunno what i doing that day... after that my gastric pain got worsen...and my feet bled while walking home with the wet sandals... maybe is my retribution... i dunno ... really sorry... anyway i will be printing the tee if possible today... hope that i can get it done on warming day...

blur me

2006-05-30T20:09:00.000+08:00

yeah! i got marksman for shooting... most importantly the marksman badge is so nice... i'm gonna wear it on my rank soon...haha... recalling what i did during the shooting ... i think i very blur ... i load the empty magazine for the supported fig. 12.... then i shouted A.I.A.I... then the sir was like ... "err... there's no bullet leh..." then very malu...so what's the conclusion? conclusion- i very blur... haha...

class tee

2006-05-29T11:40:00.000+08:00

this is the 3I's class tee design...it will be printed on a white polo tee...

Front
the logo thingy is a 3/4 of an A4 size paper and the yellow-orange thingy is a little smaller than half the logo...

Back (last minute design)
the purple logo is 6cm in height and 5cm in width with register no. included... written in "#01" for example...the cartoon thingy is 16cm in height and 9cm in width (cos head very big) and the bottom is your name abt 3cm in height... the length will vary for different individual...

pls give your budget and the size of the class tee at the tagboard.... thx... your reply must be before 8th of june... any replies after that will be invalid and i will help u estimate your tee shirt size... anyway buying of class tee is compulsory...pls comment..should i change the colours orange and yellow to shedes of blue?

front (above)
back (below)

holi!

2006-05-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

today last day of school... june holi liaox... dunno to be happy or not cos its holi but there's chunks of hw together with many nc activities and other stuff...so sianx...and also that my results were so er xin... *sigh* ... anyway i cancelled my photography course... cos too busy liaox... i swear to work harder and get L1R5 below 20... or else i am not qihui... especially getting As for both the sciences... gtg now bb...i planning for the schedule for holi... so xian...

the xian diao look:

tired....

2006-05-19T20:05:00.000+08:00

hello... everybody... today ncc act a bit tough lah... combine with part B and kept hentak kaki-ing... and pump... now my hand pain ... during act the stupid sweat kept dripping into the eyes... than the eyes pain and i have to partially close my eyes to march... and today i also very happy cos everybody gg spec course... should have told us earlier... everybody was very worried... today is such a long and tiring day... feel like squeezing into a container and rest like this hammy.... haha that's all...

happy and jumpy

2006-05-08T15:53:00.000+08:00

hello...i so happy ... just bought a new watch, a new camera and a new printer...not forgetting that my watch is green...haha... luv nc....

cute...

2006-05-07T18:40:00.000+08:00

before i forget i want to show all of u this cute hamster photo i came across while browsing through my sis's friend's blog... so cute rite? love this....

2006-05-07T18:26:00.000+08:00

haha... this is my second post for the day ... i'm here to sum up the things... err... for the exam i hav nth much to say or comment actually... i hav done my best .... actually not exactly as it was a little last minute ... i only manage to revise two weeks before the exam.... i was even scolded until i cry by my tuition teacher... ok... anyway wad's done cannot be undone ... i will work even harder the next time round...

anyway i have receive quit a no. of papers back... i only fail 1 subject so far... and my chem teacher said that i have done pretty well for a section and that he could see the effort i put in for the whole chem paper... hope he didn't see the wrong paper or else i will be happy for nth... actually i think i improve quite a lot comparing my CA L1R5 of 37... i know my present results will be better even there is quite a dist from my goal... but i am generally content with it.....

also after i heard that 11 ppl can go for spec course i very happy... haha... hope i can go to spec course... i was previously afraid that my results will affect my chance of gg to spec course... luckily it's 11 ppl... scare me....

chunks of stuff way before exam....

2006-05-07T17:54:00.000+08:00

so sorry i haven been blogging for very long time liao... anyway it was really hard finding a new blogskin . Hope this skin is better. err... yah since it's after exam i here i am continuing from where i hav stopped the last time round. maybe i will just tell u all the big events only....

sec 3 adventure camp...
the camp was very fun ... of course it is uncomparable to the OBS but generally fun. i hav to admit that it is a little disappointing at times when it rains. i am also very disgusted by the flooding toilet... it's argh! the part i love most is the kayaking part ...... so fun ... but stingy to the eyes when the sea water get into them... the cheering part was also quite fun ... esp the cheer- little baby bumble bee... so cute but a bit disgusting... the campfire was fun too .... our class danced a indian dance ... so funny... and we got 2nd... haha.. also dunno why... anyway we had a tie with 3j if i am not wrong... luckily we dun need to wash the toilets... heard that there were used sanitary pads stick onto the wall... argh!... i think i should stop mentioning abt the toilets.... oh ..... not forgetting the instructors..... they were very friendly and nice.... will miss them .... yah ... btw talking abt the instructors ... i also dunno why the girls are so mad abt ellis...he look so sisi... or maybe a better word- chio... *sigh* yuge was crazy over him... *sigh*

after the camp our class went to pizza hut and took neoprints at jec.... anyway we were scolded by the security guard for staking our bags outside .... so we carried them into the pizza hut and stack it against the wall... and it looked scary.... haha...

after the camp we had napfa quite short after that ... it was overall satisfying.... i almost got silver cos of the incline pull up... but i ask the teacher for re-test... in the end i got 13 or 12 instead of the 7 i got previously and i mantained my gold for continuous 5 years since primary 5... haha... so proud of myself.... also i need to apologize to angel for laughing at her when she did her incline... it was a little funny.... but as a friend of hers i shouldn't have laugh at her until to the extend that i almost roll on the floor ... really very sorry ... angel ...forgive me... hope u can pass your incline during ur retest... i will give u my moral support .... jiayoux!!

2006-04-11T20:02:00.000+08:00

opps! so sorry for those people who make the effort to read my blog frequently... i am really very sorry.... mid-year is coming and i am pia-ing for it... hope to get L1R5 below 15.... i know it is a a little too ambitious from the latest L1R5 of 37.... i am really working hard for it.... so stressed... i promise to updat e my blog after exams and post a whole chunk of stuff up... haha... anyway i just drop by lah... got to go and finish my homework... see you after exams... tata

2006-03-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

hey! so sorry ... i haven been updating my blog recently.... anyway i was too busy lately...

before March holi.
oh! for the Imt test ... i failed. so sad... i really hope that it won't affect the B.U.C for this year . i also dunno why lah but the rifle seems heavier there and the recoil of the gun is so great... okay... *haix* i think have to get over about this lah... after that i got duty for the netball finals the next day ... tired and reluctantly i pack up my no. 3 and then get to sleep. dunno fortunately or unfortunately... i was the 2nd ic for my shift... but also good lah ... can get to walk around and my leg not that tired after all.... Btw... during my break on that day... we when to the nearest Long John to eat lunch. anyway Jas got pissed off when we all didn't da bao our food back and buy food back for her and that she has to wait... anyway i had already suggested to da bao back so that jas and liyan can have their lunch earlier... but i was ticked off... *haix* dun listen to me lah...
anyway ....after the duty we went to Mcdonald to settle down a little... and we gave prank calls to somebody ... so funny... after that all the nc de go home and got ready for tml ... cos we meeting to practise the candlelight night dance... i love the dance... so Cute... haha... we had fun... also... and then we accompany someone to meet someone... haha... anyway i went to NUS for the chemical magic and magical chemistry... so fun ....lthen sunday we meet up again to practise the dance and to discuss on what to bring on UG camp...

March Holi.
ai ya... the march holi simply sux... i haven even finished packing my things for the UG camp even on that very day ... so early in the morning i was still packings things.... and lucky for i foget to bring my toothbrush... *frown* and then i realised that i didn't learn for the written test i having during the camp... yah... i broke down and cried... hurryly i quickly pack my things up after having a good cry and went to sch my taxi... the taxi driver stupidly went my the longer way and i was late... argh!... and "lucky" for me again... i knocked my head while trying to get off the taxi quickly... and got pumped as i'm late... i suppose is because of me... *sigh* got pumped 64 even before the camp... during the camp we did lots of bunk cleaning and got pumped too... also i flunk my mutual drill... even the sir said that my no.4 was horrendous... haix... anyway we girls also went around the school with skirts on our head near midnight... it was quite scary and i refused to stay in the life range... also i banged against the pillar... OUCH!... haha... Generally the camp was fun but of course tiring and very stinking... haha... after that i almost slept for wad seems like days... then watch a bit of korean show... go for make-up lessons... blah blah...MOST IMPORTANTLY NCC GALS UNIT GOT SILVER FOR THE B.U.C FOR 2005.... haha...

haha i think i have to continue during the coming weekend... gtg... i still haven do hw and prepare things for nc tml ... bb.. cya

2006-03-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

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i will work harder

2006-03-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

anyway after receiving the test papers... i think i got more stressed up... not only because i didn't do as well as i expected especially for my chemistry... but it is also because i found out that there are many geniuses in our class... they work hard and got very good results... i swear i will work harder no matter what it takes and be in the top 20 by med-year ... with L1R5 lover than 15... hope i can do well ... so ... everybody work towards your goal... ok? remember ... it's ok to to dream...

the trip to thai in 2005 in June

2006-02-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

Here r some of the pict. i took during the trip to Thai last year during June Holidays.. The sceneries are really wonderful... they are so nice that i dunno wad to choose to upload to my blog...

my life sux

2006-02-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

*boo hoo...* i flung my test... firstly for the chi test... i don't understand the ques for compre.... secondly for the english test... i didn't prepare the compo. at all... thirdly for the math i didn't study ... cos i too sleepy after the preparation for the v-day present yesterday... then... the physics ... i cannot finish... the hist... didn't even do the last ques... and i failed for the class test the last time... geog. test .... also cannot finish... chem test ... is pretty easy... the A-math also misunderstood ques... cannot finish + i was distracted during the test...

*sigh* my life sux... anyway i wanted to join the competition for the Singapore Young Photographer Award... HOWEVER... my mum refused to buy me a better camera... so SAD... i also wanted to buy a Mac Laptop to install loads of interesting softwares... flash... dreamweaver... photoshop ( to edit my photographs )... SAD sad...

*sigh* wanted to learn art... only learn two years...wanted to learn music instru... no time and money... wanted to learn and take up photography course... no money ... wanted to learn to ride a motorcycle/scooter... parents think i too blur, cannot learn...

SAD... my life really sux!!!

Chi and math test

2006-02-22T16:01:00.000+08:00

i am so SAD... i failed my chinese test... i am sure i will fail my maths too... oh my god...
what am i going to do.... will that affect me going to the spec course... sad... anyway i gtg... study chem test ... one of my reliable subjects... bb...

just to drop by...

2006-02-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

haha... just to drop by... anyway tml i dun have any test... just want to say that i flung my math test and my physics test ... i can't finish it... so xian... *sigh* ... gtg... hav to rely on other subjects liao... need to work even harder now...

letter of complain!?

2006-02-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

today is valentine's day... and everybody is like santa claus ... giving presents... ( i ate so much junk food... haha...)
i want to complain loh ... stupid common test lah... clashed with valentine's day for what... make me do last minute presents... i feel so bad abt it now... i didn't even prepare for the english test loh...
yah... btw for the tests... my chi maybe cannot make it liao... i wrote words instead of numbers...
*sigh* i really big sotong loh... so blur... and then that i didn't prepare english ... haix... i think my progress report will be like underline here and there lah...

anyway, before i forget... here is an advice for all of u.... rmb to tell the taxi-driver what route u want to take to ur destination... or else he will be the one cheating ur $... okie..... rmb this... cos i was cheated for a dollar as that driver took a longer route lah...

a got lots of interests........

2006-02-11T15:51:00.000+08:00

haha... i just realised that i have lots of interests ... especially after writing about my likes in the blog... anyway ... i am on the way to do my own diary... getting excited... haha... i so funny...

yeah...anyway...for the spec course thingy... i still don't think that it is very fair that only 60% of the platoon can go to spec course... i mean it's so unfair... haix... got to work harder... oso for my drills and my studies... it's so stress to be a upper sec student... so much things to do ... so little time... anyway i got to thx my family for being supportive

bb... got to go ... i haven done any hw... forget to bring textbook home... so blur... haha...

a new blog

2006-02-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

haha... i think i have to use a blog skin first... i swear i will make my own blog skin... anyway this is my first blog... so i am actually quite exicited...